To Be Broken Is to Be Stronger

Everything can be broken, but not everything is broken easily. There’s a difference to easily tell if a person’s broken or not. but sometimes the position switch to when a person looks unbroken when they really are and vice versa. But do you know what it looks like to be broken or to be unbroken?

Someone can be broken and use a mask of their own to cover up the shattered pieces in their life to keep their confidence and everything together to better their future. When you are broken you feel as if you’ve lost track of everything already been planned has been pushed so far away from you, that you don’t know where it all went. Its having your first year in school or on the job, everything begins to go well but after a while, when you’ve hit certain situations in your life, you begin to change.
You begin to start being someone you’re not and that mask that you’ve created consumes who you really are to be someone that you’ve originally made up as a cover for a protection to become you’re personality. Eventually, people will begin to notice that you’ve change, and some will already say something to you others may not til everything becomes worse for you. But those who try to make you realize things early before the become worse are the ones that you know will benefit you in the future. But if you don’t listen until you’ve made you’re own mistakes to realize it then you already know the statement, “I told you so,” will pop up in your head.
Some people won’t even tell you that you’ve changed but will still notice it and will take all the good that you’ve done and twist it into something that never really happened, only to see how much it will affect you. Only then they will realize where your weaknesses are and where your strengths are, but if they’re proven wrong then you know that you can somehow make yourself better.
Even if it hurts in the beginning that’s  just a sign of you encountering an obstacle and not rock bottom. this would be the one of the smallest steps to constantly keep moving forward, because all you can do is keep moving forward. Since no one ever said life is fair but they did said fairness will only be held in the hands of the person who hold the power to be proven wrong. If you know you didn’t do wrong the first time find ways to keep yourself off the wrong path.

You’ll turn out to be more broken if you keep holding back grudges and every piece of anger building in your body, and when that anger consumes you in the end of all your hard work that you throw it away for something that seems worthless, rather than beneficial. Even if you’re broken you still learn to put a happy face on so that others will not be affected, even with that you must have a good poker face to hide it well. But those who know you well enough would easily see even if you try to hide it as much as possible.
Not everything is a slap in the face or food given on a silver platter because its our own hands and mind that control ourselves. Its our own time that we take up to prove who we are and what we can do not mattering about where we are from or what’s in our past. Its better to be broken know and be stronger later because in the end you’re going to be strong for more than just yourself. Everything is always based on how you play your card then you know how lucky you are after everything you’ve done in your life.

Without Anything There Wouldn’t Be Obstacles

“Trying,” Everyone tries to do something, to get somewhere, to make something of themselves. But it doesn’t take a rocket scientist to say you need hard work to get where you want to be, or to better yourself. Not everything can be given on a silver platter, or a bunch of papers dropped on your lap, because you were given the tools to create the skills to make you who you are. Confusion will affect you in emotionally, physically, and mentally, it’s not something that only takes a day to get over. But a complete thought process to sort and resort all priorities and make sure that they are stabilize them to stay where they’re suppose to be unless there’s a change in plans.

By then you’d already have everything settled and back up plans in case the first plans would fail. Without the point of failing there will be no succession in the next move in a game, without the steps and rules to anything there are no obstacles made to make anything that seems difficult turn easier. Without words there are no conversations so without languages there is no understanding from others. Without the point of learning there is no point in trying for become the person you want to be whom fulfilled the dreams that they wanted.

Hard work is all we can do to reach our goal. Without the knowing what we can do to make ourselves known to what hard work we can do, is like underestimating our strengths and confusing them with our weaknesses. When you’re underestimated by others, then you suddenly start to build up the confidence to prove every person whom has underestimated you wrong, and when you do they finally realize that you can do better that what they see you can do. It’s never all talk its always talk and action. Without action and all talk people begin to lose confidence and trust in you at any cost for any help. But with proven action and evidence of it would come the development of trust and confidence.

Family and Their Miracles

               Ever got that nervous feeling about going to a place that you’ve never been to for a long time, or going to for the first time ever? You never know what to expect, or how to react to certain people of how they are. When you still have butterflies from everything that you know you’re going to enjoy your adventure. It’s not an everyday thing but at least you know its still going to be alright every time you play it safe.

               Worries are an everything, doubts are everyday things, so are once in a blue moons, but nothing can ever beat family bonds. Family are the people who brought you up, family are the people you grew up with, and family are the ones that would stand beside you through thick and thin, as well as good and bad. Family are the ones who will listen to you, and give you advice on any decision that you need to be made. Sure, you can have the most craziest memories with family, because that’s how you know you’re close with them and you can get along with your family.

               When you’ve come so far, you’ve become smarter, then you know you’ll follow you’re dreams, if you keep putting your mind to it because you know you can finish strong. God will always test you, but it’s you’re result in whether you pass or fail the test itself. Not everyone will be there to guide you or do everything for you. Like a child we all develop skills that will improve us and will need more improvements whether they’re really needed or not.

                 It’s amazing, how many different people you can connect with in your own family, even if you’ve never talked to them during your younger years. Its more difficult not to want just throw your anger at them for no reason with people you’ve been around with for so long even if you’re trying your hardest not to feel so discouraged at something that’s really nothing, but only a joke. Have you ever had a feeling that someone in your family is embarrassed you? Have you ever had a gut feeling that certain blood relatives felt that you’re an embarrassment to them and they wouldn’t talk to you after the first day you got there and talked to them for a little bit. You doubt they’re embarrassed of you, but still you second guess that doubt to be partially true based on fashion.

                 But you never know until you find out the truth. Even though it could also be the truth. Some people you can get along with, and some people you can’t get along with, some people look but don’t touch. Some touch, but don’t look, others don’t bother with either one. But why suffer for something that doesn’t seem like its worth it. Why sacrifice family that’s grown up with you for years, and break it. While they’re the ones whom have to survive with the only question on you’re mind would be when? When? When would they give their choice to make it own their own? When they know they should have already.

                Sometimes you wonder if everything you’re sacrificing is all worth it. You wonder if it’s really what you want, if you think about it you really have to look at it two ways, one way would be you’re positive side while the other is your negative side. Everyone has a saying, “You can’t have your cake and eat it too”, when not everything goes your way, make a back up plan if the first didn’t pull through.

                If you have what it takes and you know can be what you want to be if you work hard at it to be where you want to be. Then go for it and do what you have to do to reach your goal. You may have that opportunity to always have a miracle, but when you do, take it if it feels right, and when it doesn’t just let it go. You’ll never know until you try it. Not everyone can save you but then again not everyone can give you want you wanted all at once.

                  One day a crazy though will pop into your head like its nothing and you’ll pull through with it, and some days its not going to be like that. Eventually we will always do something that will show up as a miracle later. At the end of the day life will be in the palm of your hands for you to handle and make as a master piece from scratch.

Something Feels Right But Its Wrong

               Perfect, what is perfect? What would be considered perfect? What makes anything seem, feel, sound and taste perfect? Perfect? What is perfect to you? To me perfect is a moment in time that feels like its ever lasting. Perfect is a moment where everything feels so right, where everything in that moment in time is always remembered many days, weeks, months, and years later. Perfect is when all the jigsaw puzzles fit together in place without the pieces moving out of place. Perfect is like your first moment of everything happening over and over continuously.

                When you put yourself in a position, where you think you can handle yourself and at the same time know that its the wrong way when you wake up in the morning. But yet you still wonder why you took the wrong way knowing that it was completely wrong either way. Have you ever had that guilty feeling, where you know you’ve done something right, but in the wrong way, it makes you wonder if you’re willing to throw all the hard work given and cared for you by others in the family or earned by you.

                 When you think that you’re own little world should be turned upside down from a white background to pitch black dark. And part of you would wonder why are you so luck in your own life. Sometimes you can’t figure out why you are the way you are or why you are where you are. Did you ever wonder what you’re life would be like if you didn’t meet the people you know now, or what would happen if you didn’t meet them in you’re life at all.

                 When you know that someone is shining down at you from heaven like so many people you had lost along the way knowing at some point you would cross paths with them once again, because it would take one sweet day. When there are things you haven’t told a person you’d have to find a way to tell them because you never know what result you’d end up with at the end of the day, whether its good or bad.

                 We all live to die and die to live the only thing that makes life worth the while to live is the fight you make yourself go through for you to bring yourself to where you are right now. Only difference between life and death is to live forever is to accept death when it come for us, because without death there is no life or rebirth. The fear of death will fear many to keep them wanting to live forever but without the acceptance fir death. There will never be a point to want to live forever and after, when all is said and done its always on our part.

A Fallen Angel or an Angel of Death

        Have you ever felt so scared to the point where you feel as if something is going to come after you? Have you ever felt like you’ve never slept for days after having a nightmare for 3 days about running away from something. Its been almost five days and each morning  my eyes open to the sunlight hidden underneath the white blinds, when fear seems to strike the heart.

        Whenever I fall asleep, I picture myself running away from something different, in each dream still seeing blood spilled. Still seeing the faces of the dead still haunt me, still seeing people attempt to murder and blame me for something that was never done. And still it floats in my thoughts there’s something that will hit, not knowing the unknown that would be put forward before me.

           Still sitting in the same place as I began to write from continuous beginnings of stories that have endings that never finish when they have to end. Every dream that has turned into a nightmare has still an unknown meaning to each one of them. Its been long since magic has touched my hands and floated out of my mouth. Perfection was never a word that mattered to me at all, nor is the phrase, “I’ll be there for you no matter what”, has never really stuck with me either.

            Each day I feel weaker, but I never say a word about it. Each night I know I have another day to wake up to. Every inch of strength that is given to me, turns into weakness. Is it possible that the lips of an angel has been silenced by the hand of a demon of a man that’s is purely human. Is her courage turning into fear as her strength is slowly killing every power she’s got to pull through. Is it an angel slowly growing unconsciously, is her pain changing color from rainbow to pitch black once again.

              Is the past starting to catch up to her again as she becomes closer to finding her wings, they disappear to a location father from the last spot, as she stands filled with joy and happiness. As the defensive walls that stand to protected her turn into fear that will consume her heart or is the fact that her wings are constantly moving away.