I Miss You, I Miss Me More

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I miss you, I really do miss you. I miss that smile across your face, I miss that curve of your smile every time you looked in the mirror. I miss you, I really do, I miss that glow in your eyes that light up your face, to make it brighter light the city lights, and those light are really dang bright. I miss you, I really do. I miss those times you would never stop laughing, those times that you never cared if a joke is bad or not it just sounded funny as it sounded. I miss you, I really do. I miss the way you used to look at yourself in the mirror without caring for those proportions, to make your you have that bone covered up with some meat, or that portion of your skin covered up with some thickness. I miss you, I really do. I miss how you used to wake up and you already knew it was a good day, after a nightmare, a happy dream, or a past experience.

I miss you, I really do. I miss hearing you say you can eat whatever you want, and not regret it at all. I miss you, I really do. I miss seeing you just walk away from arguments that were a waste of your time. I miss you, I really do. I miss seeing you just enjoying moments in time frames. I miss you, I really do. I miss seeing your smile through your laughter. I miss you, really do. I miss hearing the happiness in your voice. I miss you, I really do. I miss the fact you didn’t give up on your dreams. I miss you, I really do. I miss how you never cared about perfection, ever cared about being too skinny, too thick, too muscular.

You just cared about how you were comfortable in your own skin. I miss you, I really do. I miss how you would be able to take the day without having to worry about the stresses that would block your way. I miss you, I really do. I miss your innocent face that changed the world one day at a time. I miss you, really do. I miss your crazy self. I miss you, I really do. So be a better you, than who you were yesterday. I miss you, I really do. That’s you who you were, you were me.

Confess or Live With Pain

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If the world was a perfect place we wouldn’t be having the mistakes and mishaps we have, if life was easy we wouldn’t be having the broken pieces and difficulties lapsing together one after another. Life isn’t perfect, it would seem like it form how hard you’ve worked. We always have a thought that we could keep going as far as we go thinking it’s never going to end. Lives a bowl of cheerios, who cares not really anyone, we all have different views, but never agree on anything. It’s always and agree to disagree situations. If you know me well enough you know that I could see right through you and nothing would stop me when I tell to you the truth that you can’t even handle it; I can’t help you from that point on. It sounds like a personal problem if you can’t handle things yourself but expect everyone else to do it for you.

If you have to wait for someone to complain to you about how mess something is then you know you’ve already lost your credibility as to being trusted. No one will have the patience to sit around and wait for you to understand what is professional and unprofessional. No one will waste their time and energy on a person who’s not only lost a credible reputation but also trust itself, because for something to be kept stable and continuing you have to be able to not rough up any edges.

Be Afraid or Not Afraid

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You see your pride right now is has gone to far up your a** that you can’t even see how bad you’re making the situation. Swallow your pride and bring your attitude from a ten down to a zero, because although everyone knows that you’ve done the crime, you’re making it so much more obvious by manipulating your signature. Everyone can tell because they know who’s the last person in and how the evidence looked before the crime had taken place and after the crime had taken place. You need to learn to stand up for yourself because the more lies that you make up the more that karma is going to take it’s chance for you to slip up and bite you hard in the back. You’ve taken it too far and you can’t even see it, because no matter what anyone tells you, you will completely ignore it. Everyone is getting irritated with you, and you can’t even control yourself. You’re screwing up your own job, but pretending to have your episodes and hiding things and repeating the same thing, blaming every situation on everything else and not yourself. You’re lack of responsibility is taking a toll on yourself because you can’t even own up to your own mistakes. You’re lack of actions are letting you dig your ditch deeper and deeper, everyone sees it but you. You’re proving yourself you be not only a broken record, but a person who’s taking everything for granted.

You think the friends you’ve gained now are true friends because you work with them and say the same thing every single time. You think that they don’t notice that they know you’re habits when you’re on the clock, you need to rethink your position. If you tell people that you’re being blamed for the wrong thing is because they’re telling the truth. If you think they’re wrong for saying what is being said to you, you need to learn from the crime that you’ve committed because if you never do the same thing will happen to you. You won’t know what to do, you told someone else that your own friend is being too much to a point that you feel like you can’t do anything, but you still continue to go to them for help like they don’t even know what’s going on, and when they tell you that they can’t help you and tell you to stand up for yourself like you really think you know what you’re doing especially after you’ve already irritated the people in higher positions. Good luck with the situation when it gets worse because if you don’t come out now it will catch up to you. When they find out it’s you who committed the crime, good luck on the next thing that you’ll be working for. The trust that you’ve build is broken from everyone, all your situations go downhill because of your lack of responsibility to take you action on making it better.

You’re already on the line to make it or break it but since you had already started to break your good record of being a good person. It’s not going to make your case any better. I mean come on it’s 2018 already for crying out loud! If your resolution was to see how much havoc you can cause congratulations on starting beginning that resolution because in the end of it all when it’s all said and done it’s going to be you, who’s out the door. Swallow your pride and take your attitude of control down from a ten to a zero, in the beginning when you started you had credibility to work well with everyone, but when you began to screw yourself up, you attempted to drag everyone else down with you and everyone is refusing to be around you. In the beginning people didn’t have a problem with you, but when you began to screw yourself up, everyone distanced themselves from you. From one argument because people refused to let you take control of the way they wanted to handle a situation you reacted by caving in and messing yourself up. You’ve messed up the situation by themselves and when they have a story that is asked of them they will tell their own story and all of them will point to you doing wrong by committing the crime that you’ve committed.

It’s 2018, and this is supposed to be the year that you’ve seen yourself getting better, but instead you’ve completely started the year by breaking yourself to pieces. So congratulations, let the hunger games of your evil begin. Because I will make sure that 2018 is my year and it will become mine without you and your dramatic a**. No one will need or want you around when they can see someone else being a better person. Be bold, be humble, be stylish, and be smart, this is the year where we swallow our pride and use it to benefit nobody else but ourselves. Any drama that was in 2017 will stay there, because it’s time to make our dreams come true, you can continue chasing a dream that and keep dreaming for years, but how you approach any situation to reach your goals both old and new will depend on your reaction.

When you’re hanging on by prayers and fight everyday like it’s a battle look at both sides of a situation to make it better. You say one thing but do something else and say it’s okay because it’s you, but when someone else does that same thing you complain about not only one thing, but everything little detail that gets on your nerves and irritates you. Your irritation is the lack of change, you don’t like something then do something about it to make it better, because for better or worse it’s your damn life. Whether someone else screws your life, it’s your choice to let is continue to let it keep f**king you over or not. Let your home be your canvas for decisions and let the world be your battleground. Fortune and fame aren’t the opening doors to happiness that’s just the mirage to see how all the gold shines in the light and on people.

Nothing comes for free if you’re not willing to work at it. It’s not a silver spoon, platter or plate given to you. You can dream, but don’t dream forever if you’re not going to work for it. Get your head out of your ass, get your life together, because your head is stuck up your a** so damn far thinking that you got it all because you have someone close to you working in the same place. Well, sweetheart it will never work that way, nothing will be given to you like that, because if it was done everyone would be rich already there would be no such thing as the lottery and pawn shops to sell things.